Seriously?
Has it really been a year since all of those empty promises were made??????
Welcome 2015. You are a reminder that I spent the last 365 days making a liar out of myself and accomplishing NONE of the goals I had so loftily set for myself at the beginning of last year.
I'd laugh, but the reality is, I know it's not funny.
It wasn't funny last year and it isn't funny now. Hell - let's face it - it hasn't been funny for the last 3 decades that I've been fat.
I'm through with making promises to myself that I cannot (or will not) keep.
That's not to say I have given up on myself. It's quite the opposite. I've just gotten to a point where I realize that what I have been doing in terms of goal setting isn't working. I have to try a new approach and I think this time around, weight loss will not be the sole focus as I try once again to begin a journey to a better me. I know that for years I have dreamed of a quick fix. I wished that I could be one of those people that loses 50 pounds seemingly overnight - but in my heart of hearts I know that's not possible. Losing weight takes hard work and dedication - 2 things I have not mastered in my past weight loss quests.
So this time around, I'm not aiming for weight loss. I'm simply aiming for improvement. Improvement in the way I perceive myself. Improvement in the way I feel physically. Improvement in the way I am able to move my body. Improvement in my relationship with food. I have no weight loss goals, although I know that if I improve other areas of my life, weight loss should be forthcoming. But I am not placing the emphasis on that. I simply want to feel better.
I've taken a year off of blogging because I honesty have had nothing good to blog about. I don't even know if I will have note-worthy things to say this year, but there's the hope that I will. And I'm going with that...
I look forward to embracing 2015 and seeing what it brings. May it be a year to remember.
